How is it that some people are successful and others aren't...?
This morning, I have found out that I didn't get the job I wanted... the job I thought was the perfect one for me. To say that I am disappointed is an understatement.
I have always thought that some people just seem to be lucky in their lives - they have no trouble finding a job, they always have enough money, they're happy. Is it that these people work harder than I do? I don't think so. Why is it that people seem 'pre-destined' to do well. And why am I not one of those people?
At Soul Survivor 2011, we were challenged to send ourselves a text message of our 'dream', of where we want to be in a year... what we want God to do in our lives. My text message read as this:
"I want to be in a job which uses my skills and challenges me - I want to be in a job that satisfies my hunger and God's will"
Last week, when I was offered an interview, I genuinely believed that this was going to be the answer to my God dream. This job would have satisfied everything in that text as far as I was concerned. Until, in my frustration and anger, I read this text again this morning ready to be shout the odds at God, one thing stuck out to me... the final two words: GOD'S WILL. Perhaps this job was never part of His plan?
For over a year now, I've been waiting for the next step or even a hint of what it would be. I know God has provided me with work, but none of it satisfies me, or in fact challenges me. I also understand that it hasn't been a year since I started praying about my God dream, but I can't help but think that time is running out!
I suppose for now, I either accept that I am never going to be incredibly 'successful' (whatever that means) or continue to trust that my 'God dream' is more than that... more than a dream!
So, after a few weeks of believing that I might actually make some progress in my life and that I might be heading in the right direction, it's 'Back to the Drawing Board' for me...
